It is not about Me!

Father break my heart for what breaks Yours
Give me open hands and open doors
and put Your Light in my eyes and let me see
That my own little world is not about me- My Own Little World by Matthew West

     It is not about me It is all about God. Today everything seems to be focused on the me factor where selfishness is normal.  This is not my world, nor does everything revolve around me. I think it is time to get out of the me, me ,me sage of life and focus on what God wants for us, Its time to start caring for other people and being focus on the lost. My prayer is for God to break my heart for breaks His. I want to witness to others and make Him known. I don't want to be so self absorbed that i miss out on what God has called me to do.  I pray that God will give me mission oppurtunities. I dont want to go through life having it centered on me, because my own little world is not about me.

He is Jealous for Me

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me- How He Loves by David Crowder Band

   God is Jealous for me! wow thats pretty awesome to think that the Creator of the universe wants all of me. He doesnt want part of me, he wants me. So my part is to not be a part of the things of this world that is in a battle for my soul. I surrender all to God , because he wants me! Him living in me is the best, most awesome thing ever!! I am nothing without him. I am His forever!! He desperately loves me. He is Jealous for me...

Less of Me

Jesus give me Your heart
Let there be a death in me
I'm making room for all that You are
Give me Your heart- Weak Man by Leeland

     Everyday we need to completely surrender to God. We have to die to ourselves and pick up our cross and follow Jesus. It has to be an everyday thing that we become less and less anfd God to become more and more so that people see more of God through me. I want God to chisel all of me until He is only left. I don;t want to life this life for my benifit,but for Him to be glorified. I am after Jesus' heart. I am weak, but he is strong, and I am totally glad that He is there to lead me and be my strength. He lives in me! I want to know him more. I want there to be less of me and more of Him. Jesus, Give me Your heart.

It Happens in a Blink

It happens in a blink
It happens in a flash
It happens in the time it takes to look back
I try to hold on tight, but there's no stopping time
What is it I've done with my life
It happens in a blink- by Revive

Life is short and i guess i have been thinking about how i need to enjoy it and take it slow. I don't want to rush through life and miss a moment with my family, friends, or something that I can do for God.  As Christians, it's time to stop being lazy and do nothing for God, but we need to stand up and be warriors for Him. When I get older I want to look back at my life and see that I was a difference in this world, that i glorified God with my life, and i didn't take anything for granted. It seems that has a Junior in high school that i just want to get on with Senior year and graduate, but i guess God keeps reminding me to slow down and enjoy this life that He has given me. I want to live like there is no tomorrow, and make memories. I want my life to be the song that God sings. I want to live and serve Jesus all the days of my life, and one day hear Him say " Well done, My good and faithful servant." So friends take life slow and enjoy every minute of it because it happens in a Blink...

I'm a Treaure in the Arms of Christ

When I don’t fit in 
 And I don’t feel like I belong anywhere
When I don’t measure up to much in this life
Oh, I’m a treasure in the arms of Christ- Forgiven by Sanctus Real

    I absolutely love this song by Sanctus Real. I am forgiven by God and I don't have to carry around the guilt and be weighed down by my sins because I am forgiven. How awesome is that! Jesus came down and died for us, people who doesnt deserve anything. He took the cross because he loves us! Because of Him, I dont have to live in the past or be defined by my failures. He died for me, so I live for Him.
    I don't have to try and measure up to what anybody says is acceptable to have in this life like popularity, money, designer clothes, or a big house with everything I want.  Sometimes i do get so beaten down and i know that is a work from Satan who is a loser. I am forgiven, and I can do anything through Jesus. I am forgiven and I belong to the King of Kings.  I think Christians, hear the lie that to have a good life we have to be accepted in the world, and if we don't fit in or we become lonely it recks our self esteem, I must admit that I wonce believed this lie.  Truthfully it is great to have friends but we can't set our focus on temporary things this world. Remember we are forgiven and God, our Abba Father has brought us out of this world, we are His. Jesus is all we need.
     No matter what we have done, we are a treasure in the arms of Christ. Wow everytime I listen to that part of the song Forgiven i get tears in my eyes. Its a powerful concept. Jesus knows me and you, He sacrifices himself for me and you,and He loves me and you. When he looks at us he doesn't see all the wrong things we have done because when he forgave us he kept no record of our wrong, he only sees us as his Treasure!!! So we should not keep playing over all our sins, but instead remember that we are forgiven and we live for Him. So let me put this again: I'M A TREASURE IN THE ARMS OF CHRIST!!!!!!!!!

Here Goes..

Here goes nothing
Here goes everything
Gotta reach for something
Or you'll fall for anything
Take a breath, take a step
What comes next
God only knows
But here goes- by Bebo Norman

    A lot of times we are so stuck in our comfort zone.. guilty at that.   We stay in our comfort zone because we are afraid of the unknow if we do step out of it.  The truth is God is going to be there no matter what. If we take a step or make a big decision that we really are leaning on faith about we can because God is there to catch us.   We have to take chances and live life, and not be confined into the securities that we have in our "box".
   We worry about so much or always thinking about the future. God says not to think about tomorrow and to summerize what he said we need to live in the present. God is here with us today and He knows tomorrow. We cant worry our life away at about what comes next, because God knows and He is here to lead us on the His path. I know that there are things in my life like college and with my grandpa or even things at school right now that I may worry about. I know that it is in His hands and all I have to do is trust and have faith in Him.My focus, plus everyone's should be to live for God. In all areas of our life we have to take that step in faith whether it may be telling someone about Jesus, what to say or do about friendship,  college or whatever else it may be, and say here goes... we do not know what the future maybe but we have to trust in God who knows everything. So here goes nothing...

My Personality Type

    My personality type is ENTP also known as  The Visionary. This personality says that i want to understand things deeper and always come up with ideas. It says I'm can be very obsessed with monor detailed, very clever, and logical. I am creative, always enthusiasist, and I always look at the possibilities in life. This personality type likes to debate and is a thinker. I have an understanding of others and it is an advantage. It also says my mode of living is focused externally and the second mode is internally. It also says that i am good at anything that i have an interest in. I have good communication skills and an extrovert. It also says that I value knowlege and understanding. ENTP's are sometimes called the lawyer type. It says that  dont have feeling for others a lot of times. Personally I think that most of this is true about me, but some like the not having  feelings for others is not me at all.
    Next is the possible careers for an ENTP. Some of the traits of the Visionary are projected oriented, creative, and full of ideas. Also it says I am a natural leader taht doesnt like to control others. Also bright, capable, excellent people skills. there are several more traits that I didn't list. It said that i am capable of doing any job, but it list several possiblke career paths for a Visionary. It said i could be a lawyer, entreprenuer, photographer, scientist, actor, or physchologist. I personally dont want to be any of these, but it is interesting to look at.
    The last thing that i looked at about my personality type is what an ENTP has about relationships. The strengths of an ENTP  in realtionships is Enthusiatic, popular, charming, and laid back. it also said that i have great communications skills and an big- idea person. It  says that I take relationships very serious and wouls be able to move on after leaving a relationship. It also listed the weaknesses of the Visionary like i like new ideas so i would change partners frequently. It says I would also not follow through with plans, would provoke arguments, and would be a risk taker. On Lovers, it said that my relationship with him would be would to grow in a relationship and I would be enthusiastic. It also said that i would be likely to put the family in financial binds with my ideas, but i would want the relationship to be healthy and loving. Then the next section is ENTP as a parent. It basically said that would be a good parent because of the child-like enthusiatism, plus I am fun and upbeat. The only thing it said bad is that I would a lot of time neglect the children because of my ideas, but would show great affection for them., The last part is about the visionary as a friend. It said that i get along with a lot of other people and i try to understand how others work.  enjoy interacting with others and likes to be around people that are intelligent, idea-oriented, and capable. The  type says that the only bad thing is that I would debate people.
   It was really fun taking the personality quiz and learning what type of personality type i have and learning about it. I think i am a visionary and most of the traits are me. It is about 80 percent dead on about me.

America is Sleeping

United States of America
Looks like another silent night
As we're sung to sleep by philosophies
That save the trees and kill the children- While You were Sleeping by Casting Crowns

      So today we went to the Walk for Life/ Sanctity of Life march. Someone has to stand up and look at the facts that abortion is so wrong. America can cover it up all they want to saying that its for womens rights or its not a baby, its a fetes. These are lies straight from Satan. Murder is murder you can suger coat it. That innocent baby will never have a say so or a right to live.
      I dont get  how there can be organizations to save the trees, then there is organizations thats says dont eat animals or whatever. It is sad that about 4,000 babies will probably die before this day is over. There is something very wrong with that . It is a baby, not a fetus. In Psalm 139:13-16,
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.  My frame was not hidden from you  when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.  Your eyes saw my unformed body;  all the days ordained for me were written in your book  before one of them came to be. God knew us before we were born and it is not his plan for babies that he had a plan for to be killed. I believe abortion is wrong. Its time to take a stand and say that Abortion is wrong no matter what the circumstances of that girl has.America is sleeping... they want to save the trees but kill the children.. Take a Stand!
  
        

Overcome

Savior, worthy of honor and glory
Worthy of all our praise, You overcame
Jesus, awesome in power forever
Awesome and great is Your name, You overcame
We will overcome
By the blood of the Lamb
And the word of our testimony
Everyone overcome- by Desperation Band.

     We sang this today in church this song today in church. While God's Bride sang praise to Him, i could just feel the God in that place. I get chill bumps everytime I hear this song, and of course i did today.  It is amazing to sing and worship the Author of Life. When i sing this song and just listen to the words it encourages me that whatever it is i can overcome anything with Jesus. He overcame death, and now He helps over come anything no matter what it is in your life! Today at church is was just awesome worship and the songs and sermon focused anround surrender and overcoming. It was really awesome. Im so glad that I live for the One that is bigger than I can ever imagine!!!! wow

You can have Me

Lord, I give you my life
I give you my life
When did love become unmoving?
When did love become unconsuming?
Forgetting what the world has told me
Father of love, You can have me
You can have me- You Can have Me by Sidewalk Prophets

      God has me. I am His. I gave God my life when I was seven years old. My life is nothing without Him. I am so in love with Jesus. I love this song because it is a reminder that I belong to a Father that has always been here and will be always be here forever.
      This world has nothing for me. I give everything this world has to offer up, just to know Jesus. As Christians, we have to surrender everything to Him everyday and not listen to this world, even if it is hard sometimes.  Im so glad that God never fails, and forgives us when we mess up sometimes. One of our goals is to become more like Him. Everyday we need to take up our cross and follow him, plus ultimately deny ourselves. We have life in Jesus. Father of Love, You can have me,

Refuge

Sweet Savior come,
be my defense,
I need you now,
so cover me with your wings,
Refuge and Strength,
let your love take over me- by......

          God is my refuge. He is all I need. I want Jesus' love to take over me in everything. He is my comfort. When there are not any trials in life, and when there is He is our strentgh. When we are weak, He is there to hold us in His arms. Wow, I'm so glad that I serve a powerful God that holds the world in His hands, yet he took time to make me and he knows me and loves me.
       There has been a lot of craziness in my life right now like at school and with my Pa, but I stand firm in God and I give it all to Him. Maybe all of what i am going through are what I call "refining moments". That is when God is just molding and shaping, basically refining me into the girl that he has called me to be.
       Its been really cool that my youth group at church is going through Psalm 91 which a really powerful chapter which is all about that God is our refuge and our protection. Psalm 91:1-2 says "Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” God has really been revealing so many things to me just throught these verses. Through everything in my life, He is my Refuge....

By the way: The song lyrics at the first is a chorus to a song that I wrote yesterday.
      

Love that will last forever

But Your love, Your love
The only thing that matters is
Your love, Your love
Is all I have to give
Your love is enough to light up the darkness
It’s Your love, Your love
All I ever needed is Your love- Brandon Heath

      I am truly loved. I have some Awesome friends and we love each other like brother and sisters. I'm so blessed to have friends that love me. I have the best family in the world. I thank God that he put me in a Christian family that loves each other no matter what. Knowing that they love me is pretty special.
     Love is a powerful word and i see so many people misusing it. it terrible. One day i will have the right man that God will put in my live to be my Love, but Jesus is my True love always. Right now Im so in love with him. The cool thing is that He loved me way before I can even comprehend!  All that matters is His love that last forever. Love from others can pass away. His love is all I ever needed and it is unfailing.  Its Your Love, Your Love.....

I Refuse

'Cause I don’t want to live like I don’t care.
I don’t want to say another empty prayer.
Oh, I refuse to
Sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself.
Oh, I could choose
Not to move but I refuse by Josh Wilson

      This song  " I Refuse" has been in my head all day. It is a new single by Josh Wilson, one of my favorite Christian artist. I fist heard this song in Tennessee when i went in November. I liked the song, but the lyrics really didn't hit until last night when I found out that there was a music video for it. So I watched it and wow, it was pretty awesome!!
       It really got me to thinking how many people do I see each week are really hurting inside and I do nothing. I know God has called us to be Fishers of men, but how many times do I actually go out and tell others about Jesus. I am so on fire for Jesus and I want to go out and tell everyone about the life saving Savior. I am God's hands and feet and I ought to be out there doing what He has called me to do.  I do not want to be a pew sitter, I want be out there sharing the greatest gift of all!!  I want to be a difference in the world. I refuse not to move, I will go and follow Jesus. I do care and I want to see how God sees and I want to be His hands and feet. I refuse to sit around and watch the world dying and going to hell. I will be all that God has called me to be and I Refuse....

Just thinking about Miracles

 And I believe in miracles
I'm a miracle myself
And I believe the good Lord hears
The ones who cry for help
And after all that He has done for me
I believe, I do believe in miracles- Miracles by Newsong
         So this is my first blog i have ever written, and I'm excited about it. My first blog posting will be what i have been thinking about lately, and that is miracles. Miracles are pretty awesome when you read about them in the Bible and God is so powerful.
         I guess miracles hit home right now with my my grandad aka Pa, which is what i call him. He has been dignosed with Lymphoma which means he has cancer in all of the lymph nodes in his body. he goes to the John Amos Cancer Center Friday to see about treatments. My Pa has never really been sick, out of my seventeen years i have only seen him sick and in the hospital two times. He has always been the caretaker for my grandmama who has been sick many times, and he has always been the strong and wise one of the family.
         He is a godly man and he ( plus all of us in the family) knows that God is in control and God is faithful 100%. The thing that my Pa keeps saying is that he is a winner either way is is dies or if he lives. My Pa is like a hero to me.
        Through this i pray for healing for my Pa... I pray for a Miracle. It is really cool how God works through the news. Sunday at church Bro. Ray our pastor was telling the church about Pa and how they needed to pray, he also mentioned a lady in our church that is also dealing with Cancer. This lady is Mrs. Norma who is a sweet godly woman and she is a friend to my granparents. Three years ago she was diagnosed with cancer and was only given six months to live, but she is still alive. She is a miracle herself, but now her cancer is back and she is again only been given a few more months to live. Her grandson, Troy, who had moved to florida to go to Bible college surprised her sunday morning by coming out on stage and shared his testimony about her having cancer. Then he sang the song Miracles by Newsong. I cryed, of course because through that song God revealed to me that He is strong, even when me and my family is going through this time, and even though we have uncertainies about the future, God has a plan.
       I pray that His Will will be done. I pray for a miracle with my Pa that the cancer will be gone and I trust in the Great Physician. I know that His ways are not our ways and His thoughts are not our thoughts, but no matter what happens I pray that God will be glorified. Miracles happened back in biblical times and they still happen today Yes, I do believe in miracles, and  I believe in a Savior that holds everything in his hands.